I MET BEN (and the ensemble)

Today was AMAZING! Ben from Bendoeslife has been in the UK and he organised a London meet-up today. Obviously I HAD to go. How could I not? This is the guy whose video made me cry, whose blog I read from start to finish over a week (and I have still not missed a post). I have read his Pa's blog and his brother's blog. They are an incredibly attractive family btw...

Anyway, I was exhausted this morning but I pushed myself out of bed, ate a plum, got dressed and went to London to meet L. When I arrived, she was already with Ben, Pa, Pa's lovely lady Terry, and Brooke (Ben's fiance). They were all very friendly, though a little chilly (haha, gotta love the overcast British weather this morning).

We hung around for an hour, waiting for everyone else, had a group photo, and then set off around the Serpentine.

Most of the people ran, but myself, L, another girl and BEN walked it! Yep, Ben walked it with us which was fab - and when another lady and her teeny little son dropped back because her son was tired, Ben carried him the rest of the way!


It was really good to have half an hour to chat with someone that I have respected from afar, and who has inspired me on several 'bad' days. You never know what it's going to be like, when you have read someone's blog that spans a couple of years - you feel like you know so much about them, but that doesn't mean you KNOW them - and I'm glad I got to meet him and see at least a little, what he's like in real life (he's lovely btw).

People were getting photos at the end, and I just HAD to do it as well - with the whole Davis clan individually of course! ;-) So here's me and Ben (I got the Davis 'point'!!!!)

Here's me, Pa and Terry!

And me and Jed! :) (Jed's GORGEOUS in real life....just so ya know! I kept commenting on him to L, much to her amusement!) (Davis 'point' take two)!

While in London at this meet-up, I also met a group of amazing people (who have tumblr blogs) and L knows. They enjoy running, and they have all got to know each other via tumblr. I felt inspired all over again. I loved their enthusiasm, and the fact they’ve translated online relationships into real-life meetups and friendships. As you know, I've been having some truly horrible down times at the moment, and today is the first day in ages that I felt really happy. As a result (and because I want to 'follow' these lovely people's blogs and keep in contact) I am now on tumblr too. Don't worry, not leaving this place - just branching out a bit more...

So basically, today = AWESOME!

I worry I've not been brilliant with food this week so need to keep on track, and I want to try and measure my inch-loss (without actually measuring my inches), so I purchased a rather snazzy UK tour Do Life T-shirt today - in size medium as I knew it would be too tight - and I want it to fit comfortably by this summer ideally. Here it is now…

Excuse the crazy eyes! Anyway, as you can see, it’s rather well-fitted! I want to see some space in that baby in a few months time!

So today....today has been good. I've met an inspiration. I've met, possibly, several more inspirations. I had fun. I didn't worry. I laughed. For the first time in....such a long time....I wouldn't change a thing about today.

Running route

According to Gmap, this route is 0.9557 miles. So if I do it twice, that's 1.9114 - almost 2 miles....right? 3 times is 2.8671, and 4 times is 3.8228 miles.

It's only a rough guess for the distance, but it'll do - on weekends, when I go early morning (i.e. when lots of people aren't around) I'll jog around here. It's got a slight hill, but is not too steep.

My quiz team won!!!

I've never won before! Wooooooo!

Food today...

B: Fruit and yoghurt- 3
L: Chicken, bacon and avocado salad - 8
D: Nandos chicken breast with ratatouille and halloumi - 12
S: Crisps, houmus, chocolate - 20
Total: 32/32 and (added from yesterday) 20/49 weeklies

Stuffed!!

2nd run was quite fun

So it was soooo hot I considered not running - then I decided "that's the wrong thing to do, you need to get into a routine because you just spent your weekly allowance on an evil-looking obstacle course!" So yeah, I got changed and headed out. After my previous rant about sports clothes for fat ladies like myself, here's a picture of me in size 18 sports stuff. I would prefer a looser top, though technically it does fit me - I just want a design that is better at disguising the widest parts (please note HIPS - thighs too, but really, what can hide those babies??)


So I headed off to go running - I left my house and jogged incredibly slowly round to the park again. Remember how I said that the hills weren't that steep and it didn't burn? I either blocked it out, or because I started off at the bottom of them, they didn't feel too bad. Today they HURT.

I was out for about 25 minutes, maybe a few minutes less. I tried to not walk for more than 30 seconds at a time, but I really wasn't timing properly so I might have got it wrong. According to Gmap, I only covered 1.6166 miles. I think I walk faster than that?! I did have to guess a bit on the map so it may have been further - but I have no way of knowing! That's definitely my walking speed though - and I mean, I did walk....a fair amount. And I guess my walking speed might have been quite slow while I was recovering - and there was a lot of uphill, AND it was boiling. But even with all that taken into account - is it even POSSIBLE to move that slowly?!

Sigh - oh well, clearly shit fitness and let's face it, if you were dragging 15 stone around you'd be slow too. A guy in my office (is now about 11st 7lb of pure muscle) apparently used to weigh about 15 stone of pure muscle - and he said everything was harder because of his weight, even though he was super fit and none of it was fat. So maybe I should give myself more credit than I am - but I'm pretty sure more obese people than me can run faster :(

Anyway - here's me at the end - shiny....


Glad I went out and did it, but the slight sense of achievement I felt was ruined when I saw the distance I covered. Hmm.

Food today:
Fruit and yoghurt - 2
Bagel with ham and cheese - 8
Potato wedges - 6
Beef chilli - 8
Crisps - 7
Ryvita fruit with chocolate philadelphia - 4

Cheese - 6
Total = 32/32 and 9/49 weeklies

I'm absolutely shattered now - sleeeeeeep.

Spartan Sprint

There is no pulling out of this because it was SO expensive. Myself and M have signed up! Actually VERY excited, if a bit terrified! I now HAVE to keep training, or I'll be likely to die.

Take a look - if you want to do it too, you can run back and help me with some of the obstacles after you finish!

Blogger isn't letting me upload photos right now (sigh) but this should give you an idea of it if you're interested.

Now, having quit the gym I need to work out - what training can I do at home, or outdoors, that will help me to complete this race without dying? It's only 5K, but I reckon I'm looking at about an hour to get through it...

0.5lb

I lost 0.5lb which I wasn't expecting - I didn't track last week, I had take-away curry on a day that had been truly sucky - in fact, in general, all last week was mainly a rollercoaster of horrible emotions - and we all know I'm a comfort eater, right?

So how did I lose? Well, I did that jog yesterday (no, that definitely didn't help on it's own) - but I think, despite this weight loss being sooooo slow, one of the positives is that my appetite IS actually decreasing. So even on days when I ate 'bad' food (curry) I didn't eat as much as I would have done before.

I definitely eat less on my 'treat' night in general. The 49 weeklies make me feel like I can 'treat' myself to 'bad' food occasionally, so I don't feel massively restricted most of the time. During the work day, even when I wasn't pointing, I was usually good because I'd have my fruit/yoghurt for breakfast, and then usually something not too big for lunch - I'd either bring in a sandwich/bagel, or go to town and pick one up - and I'd still be conscious not to buy something really high in points, or snacks to go with it.

Even when I felt like shit and thought 'fuck it, I'm gonna binge' - I think I ate maybe 2 malteser bunnies (the mini ones from a pack, not the normal sized ones), and I can never eat a whole large bag of crisps now, which used to be so easy for me cos crisps are definitely my weakness in a big way.

Could it be....becoming a WAY OF LIFE???? Which is the whole point of WW really....

Anyway - lost 0.5lb, so 17lb in total. 15st 4.5lb. Still a LOOONNNNG way to go. If I could lose 17lb again in the next two months, I think I'd be happy with that. Would struggle though as it's taken me at least 3 months to do it this time around. We'll see though - maybe if I up the exercise it'll happen - which will be in time for the netball tournament I'm going to in Bournemouth!

125 always says what I want to say

Read this this morning.

The funny thing is, her life is one I envy. When you read the list of things she would have to include in her 'life story' - omg, she's done everything. She's so lucky.

It still describes how I feel all the time though.

I found a nice place to jog :D

After Rainbow Guides I headed out to run. All morning I'd been keen to run. All afternoon I wanted to do anything BUT run. But I promised myself I would so I did.

It was horrible, because it was daylight - and people were around. So I decided not to go the route I had planned and instead headed in the opposite direction where it looked more isolated.

I came across this sign:

And thought - hey, why not? It looks nice, and empty, and it's light enough out that I don't think I'll get attacked. So I started jogging past the gate.


It was a little hilly, but not terrible - it didn't burn when I jogged up. It was a really nice evening.




I only really jogged in 30 second bursts, and walked for probably 1 minute bursts - stayed out for around 20 mins and then walked home.

I'm insanely unfit, but hopefully I can stick to this route now (unless I get up early, or go out later in the evening) as it seems quite quiet compared to other routes.


Will try again on Wednesday! Dinner time now!

Count on Us Tuna Salad

7pp.

Must make my own...I think I have low fat mayo at home. Then I can avoid things like rocket or other herby flavoured lettuce leaves!!

Hunger works in mysterious ways

I ate my breakfast (yoghurt and fruit, go me) this morning at around 7.45am. I had a cup of tea with no sugar or milk (but sweetener). I was hungry - and am still hungry - about 20 minutes after finishing. Sigh. I have another apple and a nectarine with me - I'm not sure I should be eating quite this much fruit! HUNGRY!!!!

All the fun races cost loads of money

I'm looking at the Spartan Sprint in July (Cambridge) and the Warrior Dash in June (Surrey) - About £40-50 each. Ouch.

Looking at my new budget....that's one week's money gone! Decisions decisions. I could probably go a week without spending extra, if I only eat at home and only go round people's houses or have them round mine....

I'm gonna jog tonight...

Inundation of posts today - but if I were to invest...

Or if someone were to invest for me - what should I get, bearing in mind the massive price difference?

http://nikeplus.nike.com/plus/products/sport_band/

or

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Garmin-Forerunner-205-Personal-Training/dp/B000F5HZHQ/ref=sr_1_15?ie=UTF8&qid=1332709322&sr=8-15

I think the Nike one would probably do everything I wanted it to - would it be as reliable? It (garmin) would do laps etc...which would be quite cool. But...hmm. Which would you choose?

Men have it so much easier

Started watching Alcatraz. Two lead males - one even more obese than me with a not stereotypically attractive face. The other, 55 years old and looks his age. Lead female? Young, thin, attractive - of course. Otherwise no-one would watch it, would they?

This was dinner tonight

Soooo good! WW bread, thin spread of peanut butter, sliced banana....yum.

Exercise

Don't do exercise directly after eating, it hurts and makes you want to puke.

Exercise, sun, and maybe most importantly - friends to do it all with - can lift your spirits. Even when you feel like everything sucks, that people suck, that you can't rely on anyone - just a bit of sun, a bit exercise, and a bit of kindness in the form of companionship - it makes you feel that little bit better.

I want to lose 2 stone in 2 months. I doubt it's possible (I know it's not) but if I can make myself start running frequently, it's more possible than it is right now.

I wish sadness, and boredom, didn't make me want to eat everything in sight. I wish I didn't have such high expections of others - just because I would do certain things for people, it definitely DOESN'T mean they would do it for me. I just have to live with that and hope that maybe, one day, someone somewhere will want to put me first. It's not happened yet, but one day....I'm not dead yet....

Belly is currently full. Think I'll have sts or something this Tuesday - definitely not lost.

Run taking place this evening

It will be darker - less foggy (OMG what is going on with the fog around here??!) and a nice temperature I think. I'll report back on that later.

I keep waking up sad. I hate it. So I'm watching Glee. Glee generally makes me happy. And the blond white guy with big lips just started rapping - it's pretty cringeworthy, but I did grin.

"No fat chicks allowed"

I found this post while desperately trying to find somewhere I can buy sports clothing from. And it's SO TRUE. I am currently a size 18 - I am currently wearing a size 16 dress and it fits nicely, even with some space - but that's because shops do sizes differently depending on their mood that week, rather than because I am a size 16. I would even guess that I am over a size 18 in some shops, and definitely over a size 18 if we went by my measurements - however, 18 is generally what will fit me in most places.

So why, when I go to a sports shop to buy sportswear, does EVERYTHING come up small in the women's range? I have a couple of size 18 tops - proper material running t-shirts - I can't bear to go out in public in them. For one thing, they are really short - and I have a relatively short torso. If I try running in it, it rides up. The last thing I, or anyone else wants, is my belly on display. I haven't been able to pick up something above a size 18 in the sports shops in town. I always end up picking up men's t-shirts instead, which just don't make you feel great and don't fit properly because - shock horror - I'm not SHAPED LIKE A MAN.

I don't want to wear sleeveless tops at the moment, because my arms are the same size as other people's calves, if not bigger. I'd just like a fitted women's sports top that comes down further than my waist, and isn't skin tight, and has short sleeves that actually cover the top part of my arms. I would happily buy larger sizes if I needed to - I would happily go to a specialist plus-size shop - I would even pay a few pound more for the larger size because it used more material - but it just seems to be that if you're fatter than average, you are NOT meant to work out - at least not in public. Certainly not while wearing a decent sports brand.

Don't even get me started on sports bras. I'm a weird size, I never fit into what I measure as, and I have yet to find a sports bra I can afford that is wide enough for my back and supportive enough for my non-large breasts. Sigh.

It's hard enough knowing you look fat - and unfit - but to not even be able to buy decent clothes that are suitable for your workout... it sucks. And when you feel unattractive, something as simple as well-fitting, comfortable sports clothes will be enough to give you the boost to get out there and do something. Seems vain, but you need that confidence lift sometimes.

One of the things I really hated at the gym was seeing my reflection - rolls of fat, hair scraped back (a terrible look for my round face), red and sweaty, and ill-fitting clothes. I'd leave the gym feeling depressed, rather than proud of what I'd done.

I WANT SOME DECENT, WELL-FITTING, WORK OUT CLOTHES! Is it too much to ask?

Couch-to-5K

So, everyone seems to do the couch25K running plan. According to this NHS site, this is what it is:

A week-by-week description of the nine-week Couch to 5K podcasts.

Week one

Begin with a brisk 5-minute walk, then alternate 60 seconds of running and 90 seconds of walking, for a total of 20 minutes.

Week two

Begin with brisk 5-minute walk then alternate 90 seconds of running with 2 minutes of walking, for a total of 20 minutes.

Week three

Begin with brisk 5-minute walk then two repetitions of 90 seconds of running, 90 seconds of walking, 3 minutes of running, 3 minutes of walking.

Week four

Begin with a brisk 5-minute walk then 3 minutes of running, 90 seconds walking, 5 minutes running, 2½ minutes walking, 3 minutes running, 90 seconds walking, 5 minutes running.

• Download the Couch to 5K podcasts
• Watch Laura St Quinton talk about starting C25K

Week five

There are three different workouts for this week. They are as follows:

Workout 1: brisk 5-minute walk, then 5 minutes running, 3 minutes walking, 5 minutes running, 3 minutes walking, 5 minutes running.

Workout 2: brisk 5-minute walk, then 8 minutes running, 5 minutes walking, 8 minutes running.

Workout 3: brisk 5-minute walk, then 20 minutes running, with no walking.

Week six

There are three different workouts for this week. They are as follows:

Workout 1 brisk 5-minute walk, then 5 minutes running, 3 minutes walking, 8 minutes running, 3 minutes walking, 5 minutes running.

Workout 2: brisk 5-minute walk, then 10 minutes running, 3 minutes walking, 10 minutes running.

Workout 3: brisk 5-minute walk, then 25 minutes with no walking.

Week seven

Begin with a brisk 5-minute walk then 25 minutes of running.

Week eight

Begin with a brisk 5-minute walk then 28 minutes running.

Week nine

Begin with a brisk 5-minute walk then 30 minutes running.

Tips on progression

The programme is designed for beginners to gradually build up their running ability to be able to run 5K without stopping.

The pace of the nine-week running plan has been tried and tested by thousands of new runners, so you can trust the programme.

You can, however, repeat any one of the weeks until you feel physically ready to move on to the next podcast.

Structure is important for motivation, so try to allocate specific days in the week for your runs and stick to them.

Rest days are critical. A rest day in between each run will reduce your chance of injury and will also make you a stronger, better runner.

Resting allows your joints to recover from what is a high-impact exercise and your running muscles to repair and strengthen.

Some new runners starting the programme experience calf pain or sore shins (sometimes known as shin splints).

Such aches can be caused by running on hard surfaces or by running in shoes that do not have enough foot and ankle support.

Always do the the 5-minute warm-up walks as instructed in the podcasts before each run and check that your running shoes are offering good support.

You will have good runs and bad runs. Accept it and don’t spend too much time analysing the how and why. Even a bad run is good for you.

So what is my problem? Well. I have several....

Despite KNOWING I'm a bad runner - that I'm supremely unfit - that I can't 'run' at all, let alone for 60 seconds - I don't want to start on week 1. It looks too easy. Even if I do it, and I almost die, I'll feel it is too easy. I don't want to waste 5 minutes walking at the beginning. I want to already be on week 6. I KNOW that I have to start at the beginning and build up, and if I do that, I should be able to run 5k. But I don't want that -I want to be there now.

I'm not sure if this is because, when younger, I was generally quite fit from bits and pieces of sports I did - therefore although I wasn't a runner, I could run for 30 minutes and complete 5k. Now I can't - it's frustrating.

I generally think less than an hour's workout is pointless - I KNOW it's not. I know doing intervals in half an hour is probably better for me. But some part of me doesn't want to accept that. Doesn't process how half an hour could be good for me (better than doing nothing, yes - but better overall?)

I know I'll feel like dying when trying this out for 20 minutes. Yet I also know that I'll be annoyed when I get home that I didn't keep going - that I recovered and don't ache. That I don't see an immediate improvement on my speed and body.

I set myself too high expectations when I am fully aware I can't meet them, and then I feel like I have failed. But what I'm not sure of yet, is WHY!

Park run

I will build up to being able to join in with this. I'm not going to do it yet - I looked at the finishing times, and everyone appears to be able to do around 10kmph, including those of retirement age!!! The slowest time - I am slower than. But this would be a good thing to start doing I think...I just can't face it at the moment. I can't be last AGAIN.

Running - why I dislike it (mainly outdoors)

1 - People look at you and depending on their meanness, say things

2 - Nothing is baggy enough to hide my mass - and when something is baggy, it makes my skin itch

3 - Tight clothing is horrendous on someone that looks like me, even if it's more comfortable

4 - I sweat - properly - I don't have a fine sheen on my face like most people do, I almost lose half my body weight - and I look awful

5 - I am slow - really slow - so when I jog around, I can't overtake people walking very easily - or if I do, I then get tired and need to walk, and they overtake me again, which is hideous

6 - It's getting lighter in the evenings. People can see me a whole lot better in daylight. I prefer darker evenings

7 - It's lonely

8 - It takes me ages to see any improvement

9 - Hills

10 - Intervals make me want to pass out

There are probably more. Loads more. Yet I still want to do it. It's free (once I get some more trainers anyway). I just wish it wasn't so lonely. And this 'you should be able to talk' crap - I can't talk once I pick up the pace from a walk to a run - I don't think I've ever been able to, even at my fittest (10kmp - not exactly speedy) I felt comfortable running at that pace, but if I'd tried to talk to someone, I'd have got a stitch/needed to slow down or stop.

I'm hungry

I have an apple and a piddly little ham and lettuce sandwich on WW bread to get me through the day.

I'm being stood up by students.

I have no money with me.

I'm going to be starving all day.

Sad times.

I need a running buddy

How do I find a creature like this?

I quit the gym

That will hopefully save me.... £370 or so a year. Woo?

Now need to buy some cheapo trainers from Go Outdoors (basically decent running shoes, but non-branded) so I can do some more stuff for free...around the park, or the green. Sigh.

Would definitely like a lotto win soon. 2 of my friends said they'd give me some cash if they won. That would be awesome...I wonder if they actually play the lottery...

Found out today that a guy in my office has won the lottery before when part of a syndicate. Wow.

Skiving weigh-in today

Shock horror, I know. Yesterday morning the scales suggested a stay-the-same (sts) or even minor loss. This morning, I'm up 2lb. I ate 2 lots of bread yesterday - could this be it? I felt awful after the toast for breakfast, been having fruit and yoghurt mainly for the last couple of weeks, and couldn't believe how awful I felt for it. I was almost nodding off at my desk - which resulted in drinking Dr Pepper to stay awake. Then, not learning from this, I had a panini for lunch.

I think too much dense bread. WW bread doesn't have this effect on me, cos it's probably fake bread to make it so low in propoints! ;-)

Anyway, gonna see if the scales are a bit nicer to me tomorrow and might try for a weigh-in in town. Can't make any other weigh-ins this week in my area!

Got my yoghurt and fruit for me this morning, and a nice litre of orange squash, so fingers crossed I don't feel like death today like I did yesterday!

Grrrrr

I want to be a runner. I will find a way to be a runner if it kills me. I will be able to run 10K an hour. At some point. Hopefully. GRRRRRR!

I may have eaten my feelings today

Lying on the sofa now. Hurts to breathe. Bad Jane.

My mood has been very low today

So I ate 4 sausages for dinner (yes I did, and they were om nommy!)

B: Fruit and yoghurt - 3
L: Ham sandwich, snack sushi, prawns and chilli sauce - 15
D: 4 sausages - 14

32/32

I spent about 3 hours debating what to have for dinner. I couldn't decide. Hence I ate 4 sausages and nothing else. I have 2 left for lunch tomorrow.

Need a better day...

Steak and BJ day

Apparently.

Anyway - meal plan for the day.

B: Swiss bircher - 7

L: Panini - 15

D: Quorn Shepherd's Pie - 8

S: Crisps - 5

Flapjack - 11

Total: 32/32 and 14/49 weeklies

Yo-yo dieting....

I decided to look back over my rather pathetic last three years of dieting to see where I got before I failed, and started again, and failed, and started again...and the lowest weight loss I can find is here. I'm 10.5lb away from this weight now....I MUST keep going once I get there.

I can't believe I never got further. Well, I can. Because dieting is HARD - sustaining this for any length of time is hard, let alone the length of time I need to. But I must.

Weigh-in after the weekend of resistance

I lost 2lb!!!

I am pleased. I just want to lose EVEN MORE!

But for now - FAJITAS! :)

Can we all please praise Louise?

She rocks!!! Read here!

I'm hoping to have lost some weight tonight - who knows!!!

Dieting can be very frustrating

So Friday I was going to London after work to see Jack Whitehall (was fab) and then on to Guildford. I had fruit for breakfast, and then home-made bobotie (my own low-fat, slightly changed version) - for 10pp. THEN - I made a super healthy decision at the train station and bought a banana and a go ahead slice bar as my snack cos I was hungry - 3pp. For dinner, I had tomato and basil soup and small bread (gonna guess - 4pp? I didn't eat all of the soup and the bread was teeny tiny with no butter) - and BBQ sliced chicken salad - shall we say 10pp? No dressing on it at all...so that's 27pp - I did have 2 cocktails though. Probably loads of points. Let's assume I have no more weeklies?

Saturday I woke up in Guildford (late night gossiping with Melike) - had a small glass of juice which I'm ignoring the pp of because my HOUR LONG SPINNING CLASS will definitely have at least cancelled it out. And I'm not working out my activity points, so won't be adding anything to my daily allowance. Got back from Spinning, ate an apple, an orange and a muller light (3pp). Went into town, came back and ate some prawns and sweet chilli sauce (4pp). I have bought grapes and put some in the freezer for after dinner, and breakfast tomorrow morning. I have to eat out tomorrow for lunch - the menu is the least diet friendly one I've seen in ages. No salads. everything seems to be deep friends or in high pointed sauces. Sad times people! Why can't pubs and restaurants be a bit more health conscious? Just one or two options, that's all!!!

We are having Thai takeaway tonight. I used to have pad thai as it was really low on the old system. On the new system it's 20pp. Ouch. So I need to have a think and see what I can have. And not really drink alcohol. And not eat the crisps, popcorn or fondant fancies that M has bought for us to share with L when she arrives. They are both size 6 & 8.

So I have...25pp left for dinner. I could maybe have half a pad thai and add a chicken or duck dish to it maybe. But I hate food going to waste so someone else will have to eat the rest...hmm.

I will have to exercise in the morning before going for lunch - I know tomorrow's evening meal is the bobotie for 10pp again, so that gives me 22pp for breakfast and lunch. It's suprisingly difficult to make that last when you are eating out.

So yeah - dieting is a f*cking nightmare. It's making me really grumpy today. And if I don't lose weight this week - f*ck that, if I don't lose more than ONE POUND this week - I'll be really peeved. I hate my body at the moment, not just for it's giant size, but for it's ability to gain 4lb in a day, but not lose 4lb in a week, even though I am hungry most days. Grrr.

Indulgence Wednesday

Ok, so I went to see a friend I had not seen for a long time and we'd both had bad days so it was time for some indulgence! :)

My day looked like this:

Breakfast: Go ahead bar - 3

Lunch: Rice and home made turkey jalfrezi - 13 (om nommy goodness btw)

Dinner: Domino's texas BBQ pizza - 48 (F*ck you pizza and your yummy carby feast)

So my daily total is 32/32 dailies, and 32/49 weeklies.

I sense this week will be a bad one because I am out for dinner tonight, out tomorrow night, and at a friend's at the weekend. Oh dear. There is also no/very little time for exercise before Tuesday as well. I could have actually done some tonight, but said I'd go to netball in case they need a sub...

Ok, might be forced to take trainers and stuff to Guildford this weekend and get up at stupid o'clock on Saturday and fit something in! We shall see.

Today I have:

Breakfast: Grapes - 0

Lunch: Chicken and cheese salad - 9

Dinner: IT'S A SECRET!! By that I mean, they don't have the menu online so I can't make a decision yet. I'm gonna aim for meat or fish with veg if I can. Will have 21 points left over, so it's doable!

Right, gonna look up a recipe for the turkey mince that I took out to defrost this morning ...

BMI stuffs

I decided to look at how my BMI has changed, after reading a news report about how in NHS Bedfordshire, anyone with a BMI over 35 (as it's considered pretty obese) will be denied hip or knee operations (seems relatively sensible if the weight is a) a factor in needing one and b) if weight will break it when the procedure is done).

Anyway, when I started I was 16st 7.5lb and according to a random weight loss website with a BMI calculator, this meant:

Your BMI is 42.3 - severely obese

Yep, I can see that!

So now I am 15st 7lb, this means:

Your BMI is 39.7 - obese

(WW rounds this number up to 40). I'm pretty sure that 39.7 is 'severely obese', not just obese - I thought we went up in 5s? Over 25, overweight; over 30, obese; over 35, morbidly obese; over 40, wow, severely morbidly obese.... or maybe not!

Anyway - at least I'm slooowwwwllllyyyy going down. The lowest my BMI ever was, was 24 - which is only just under healthy really. I'd like to have a maximum BMI of 23 (9 stone) - Ideally I'd like to go lower, but with over 6 stone to go to get there, let's not aim too high! ;-)

32pp

Now that I've lost a bit more weight again, I'm down from 33pp to 32pp (originally had 34pp - will I lose a point every half a stone til I'm down to 29?)

Such a small thing, but I bet I'll notice it!

What's this?!

Well hello little blog readers (of which there seem to be substantially fewer, but you're all dedicated so that's nice) - are you wondering what this is? This is a symbol, given to me at my weigh-in, because....I'VE NOW LOST A STONE!!!! 1st 0.5lb to be exact!

I lost 1.5lb this week - not as much as I'd have liked, but I have been a lazy arse and not exercised, so good good good anyway!

I now weigh 15st 7lb - still big big big, but smaller than I was in 2011! ;-)

I wish I could have stayed for the meeting, but have netball later and needed desperately to eat something beforehand! Will have home-made curry after netball too!

Finally a stone down! FINALLY! Come on 2nd stone, I'd like to see you by May please!!!

Tuna salad and grapes

I hate weigh-in days. I really wanted a panini, or something with BREAD. I love bread. But I got a tuna salad and grapes. Bleh. I ate it at 11.30am. I am already hungry again less than an hour later. Boo. I bet the scales won't appreciate my efforts tonight either :(

Chocolate and crisps

They cause energy slumps. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

Now have 10pp left for the day! Thinking prawn or salmon salad for dinner...or something!

It is a truth universally acknowledged

You will be hungrier on the day before you are due to weigh in than ANY OTHER DAY!!!

Sigh...

Weekend frolics

So...what have I been up to?

FRIDAY involved drinking in the evening, so my day looked like this:

Breakfast - Muller light toffee flavour
Lunch - chicken salad (no dressing) and crisps, one malteser bunny
Dinner - shared breaded mushrooms and shared chips with beef chilli
Alcohol - 1.5 bottles of wine and 2 shots

I also sang this - solo. Scary? Yes, probably. Sorry to the people who witnessed it.

SATURDAY:

Breakfasts - grapes
Lunch - 3/4 bolognaise pizza - resisted sharing any of the garlic bread
Dinner - slices of roast chicken, roasted sweet potato, leeks, brocolli and brussel sprouts, gravy

SUNDAY:

Breakfast - mango
Lunch - undecided as I'm going out - will either be steak and jacket potato, or roast pork with all the trimmings. Yum!
Dinner - Prawn salad with sweet chilli sauce (I think - there are many things I can choose from)

Watching Woman in Black with mother and a friend today. Distractions are good.

Quorn mince and Veg burrito

Dinner - with grated cheese (light, of course) and a yummy mixed salad!

15pp - mainly because the tortilla wrap was high. Must look into lower pp wraps!

Also ate frozen grapes, 2 hash browns (6) and a count on us chicken wrap from M&S (7). 28/33 so far....thinking the remaining 5 will be used on something puddingy, like cadburys philadelphia on toast!