My mood has been very low today

So I ate 4 sausages for dinner (yes I did, and they were om nommy!)

B: Fruit and yoghurt - 3
L: Ham sandwich, snack sushi, prawns and chilli sauce - 15
D: 4 sausages - 14

32/32

I spent about 3 hours debating what to have for dinner. I couldn't decide. Hence I ate 4 sausages and nothing else. I have 2 left for lunch tomorrow.

Need a better day...

Steak and BJ day

Apparently.

Anyway - meal plan for the day.

B: Swiss bircher - 7

L: Panini - 15

D: Quorn Shepherd's Pie - 8

S: Crisps - 5

Flapjack - 11

Total: 32/32 and 14/49 weeklies

Yo-yo dieting....

I decided to look back over my rather pathetic last three years of dieting to see where I got before I failed, and started again, and failed, and started again...and the lowest weight loss I can find is here. I'm 10.5lb away from this weight now....I MUST keep going once I get there.

I can't believe I never got further. Well, I can. Because dieting is HARD - sustaining this for any length of time is hard, let alone the length of time I need to. But I must.

Weigh-in after the weekend of resistance

I lost 2lb!!!

I am pleased. I just want to lose EVEN MORE!

But for now - FAJITAS! :)

Can we all please praise Louise?

She rocks!!! Read here!

I'm hoping to have lost some weight tonight - who knows!!!

Dieting can be very frustrating

So Friday I was going to London after work to see Jack Whitehall (was fab) and then on to Guildford. I had fruit for breakfast, and then home-made bobotie (my own low-fat, slightly changed version) - for 10pp. THEN - I made a super healthy decision at the train station and bought a banana and a go ahead slice bar as my snack cos I was hungry - 3pp. For dinner, I had tomato and basil soup and small bread (gonna guess - 4pp? I didn't eat all of the soup and the bread was teeny tiny with no butter) - and BBQ sliced chicken salad - shall we say 10pp? No dressing on it at all...so that's 27pp - I did have 2 cocktails though. Probably loads of points. Let's assume I have no more weeklies?

Saturday I woke up in Guildford (late night gossiping with Melike) - had a small glass of juice which I'm ignoring the pp of because my HOUR LONG SPINNING CLASS will definitely have at least cancelled it out. And I'm not working out my activity points, so won't be adding anything to my daily allowance. Got back from Spinning, ate an apple, an orange and a muller light (3pp). Went into town, came back and ate some prawns and sweet chilli sauce (4pp). I have bought grapes and put some in the freezer for after dinner, and breakfast tomorrow morning. I have to eat out tomorrow for lunch - the menu is the least diet friendly one I've seen in ages. No salads. everything seems to be deep friends or in high pointed sauces. Sad times people! Why can't pubs and restaurants be a bit more health conscious? Just one or two options, that's all!!!

We are having Thai takeaway tonight. I used to have pad thai as it was really low on the old system. On the new system it's 20pp. Ouch. So I need to have a think and see what I can have. And not really drink alcohol. And not eat the crisps, popcorn or fondant fancies that M has bought for us to share with L when she arrives. They are both size 6 & 8.

So I have...25pp left for dinner. I could maybe have half a pad thai and add a chicken or duck dish to it maybe. But I hate food going to waste so someone else will have to eat the rest...hmm.

I will have to exercise in the morning before going for lunch - I know tomorrow's evening meal is the bobotie for 10pp again, so that gives me 22pp for breakfast and lunch. It's suprisingly difficult to make that last when you are eating out.

So yeah - dieting is a f*cking nightmare. It's making me really grumpy today. And if I don't lose weight this week - f*ck that, if I don't lose more than ONE POUND this week - I'll be really peeved. I hate my body at the moment, not just for it's giant size, but for it's ability to gain 4lb in a day, but not lose 4lb in a week, even though I am hungry most days. Grrr.

Indulgence Wednesday

Ok, so I went to see a friend I had not seen for a long time and we'd both had bad days so it was time for some indulgence! :)

My day looked like this:

Breakfast: Go ahead bar - 3

Lunch: Rice and home made turkey jalfrezi - 13 (om nommy goodness btw)

Dinner: Domino's texas BBQ pizza - 48 (F*ck you pizza and your yummy carby feast)

So my daily total is 32/32 dailies, and 32/49 weeklies.

I sense this week will be a bad one because I am out for dinner tonight, out tomorrow night, and at a friend's at the weekend. Oh dear. There is also no/very little time for exercise before Tuesday as well. I could have actually done some tonight, but said I'd go to netball in case they need a sub...

Ok, might be forced to take trainers and stuff to Guildford this weekend and get up at stupid o'clock on Saturday and fit something in! We shall see.

Today I have:

Breakfast: Grapes - 0

Lunch: Chicken and cheese salad - 9

Dinner: IT'S A SECRET!! By that I mean, they don't have the menu online so I can't make a decision yet. I'm gonna aim for meat or fish with veg if I can. Will have 21 points left over, so it's doable!

Right, gonna look up a recipe for the turkey mince that I took out to defrost this morning ...

BMI stuffs

I decided to look at how my BMI has changed, after reading a news report about how in NHS Bedfordshire, anyone with a BMI over 35 (as it's considered pretty obese) will be denied hip or knee operations (seems relatively sensible if the weight is a) a factor in needing one and b) if weight will break it when the procedure is done).

Anyway, when I started I was 16st 7.5lb and according to a random weight loss website with a BMI calculator, this meant:

Your BMI is 42.3 - severely obese

Yep, I can see that!

So now I am 15st 7lb, this means:

Your BMI is 39.7 - obese

(WW rounds this number up to 40). I'm pretty sure that 39.7 is 'severely obese', not just obese - I thought we went up in 5s? Over 25, overweight; over 30, obese; over 35, morbidly obese; over 40, wow, severely morbidly obese.... or maybe not!

Anyway - at least I'm slooowwwwllllyyyy going down. The lowest my BMI ever was, was 24 - which is only just under healthy really. I'd like to have a maximum BMI of 23 (9 stone) - Ideally I'd like to go lower, but with over 6 stone to go to get there, let's not aim too high! ;-)

32pp

Now that I've lost a bit more weight again, I'm down from 33pp to 32pp (originally had 34pp - will I lose a point every half a stone til I'm down to 29?)

Such a small thing, but I bet I'll notice it!

What's this?!

Well hello little blog readers (of which there seem to be substantially fewer, but you're all dedicated so that's nice) - are you wondering what this is? This is a symbol, given to me at my weigh-in, because....I'VE NOW LOST A STONE!!!! 1st 0.5lb to be exact!

I lost 1.5lb this week - not as much as I'd have liked, but I have been a lazy arse and not exercised, so good good good anyway!

I now weigh 15st 7lb - still big big big, but smaller than I was in 2011! ;-)

I wish I could have stayed for the meeting, but have netball later and needed desperately to eat something beforehand! Will have home-made curry after netball too!

Finally a stone down! FINALLY! Come on 2nd stone, I'd like to see you by May please!!!